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Pretty darling, stop running down my street, The tears are dropping like a nuclear meltdown. I never meant to let it come to this. Can we blame it on timing, not chemistry? All night long, i'll sing the same somber song, Attack my decisions, and the horse they road on. Everything seems to be less that zero. A mascara hero with a heart of zinc.



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the girl
Samantha; sixteen; born june eleventh nineteen eighty eight; goes to school at stroudsburg high school; hair color is dark redish brown; she has zero tattoos or peircings; green eyes.

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Favorites
movies: the notebook, garden state, napoleon dynamite;
bands: underoath, eisley, modest mouse, the killers, le tigre, rilo kiley, fall out boy, the shins, the verve, radiohead;
singers: joanna newsom, jewel(before she sold out), alanis morisette, vanessa carlton, john legend, tori amos;
Television shows: Americas next top model, the simple life, the real world, family guy, elimidate;
foods: chinese, chicken noodle soup, ramen noodles, spaghetti, ritz crackers, caramel turtles;
drinks: diet pepsi, diet coke, water, hot chocolate, tea;
models: gisele bundchen, petra nemcova, && brittany from antm;

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dislikes
bands: green day, atreyu, good charlotte, LFO, nsync, && justin timberlake;
foods: cheese, hot dogs, lunch meat, red meat, pizza; television shows: american idol, surreal life;

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What i like to do
shop, paint, sing, dance, draw, make graphics, aim, livejournal, myspace, make clothes, watch movies;


a letter to you
Dear you, I love you muchly. You've been nothing but open hearted, and emotionally available and supportive, and nurturing, and consummately there for me. I keep drawing you in and pushing you away. You are the best platform from which to jump beyond myself. What is wrong with me? Image hosted by TinyPic.com


my old journal name was _________obtuse


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you were mine
I can't find a reason to let go, even though you've found a new love, and she's what your dreams are made of. I can find a reason to hang on, what went wrong can be forgiven, without you, it isn't worth living alone. Sometimes i wake up crying at night, and sometimes i scream out your name what right does she have to take you away, when for so long, you were mine.

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count the stars
What does it take to get this through to you subject yourself to things that you deserve just stop me if youve heard enough of what you should have said & done like promises that never last you can waste your whole life youll never get the best of mine
This brand new skin is wearing thin & youll never know until its gone
How far you go just to destroy yourself tuck in your self esteem its falling out tomorrow may come easier like yesterday was never there suprising as it always seems you could take a lifetime youll never get the best of mine
Ill stay the "maybe" that waits on you now im pathetic for letting go just think of this as a lesson learned to never take advantage of the people that depend on you

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thats my prerogative
People can take everything away from you but they can never take away your truth. But the question is..Can you handle mine?
They say I'm crazy, I really don't care. That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty, But I don't give a damn
Getting boys is how I live Some ask me questions Why am I so real?
But they don't understand me. I really don't know the deal about my sister, Trying hard to make it right Not long ago Before I won this fight

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[ Monday
October 2004 @ 3:21pm
]

new journal

_____slutface

add it
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[ Monday
October 2004 @ 10:55am
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[ Friday
October 2004 @ 9:27am
]
[ mood | damnit ]

okay,
so im not going to see john kerry.
because he was here this morning. not tomorrow morning. and my dad got the message too late and thought it was for tomorrow. so im kind of upset.

damnit.

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[ Friday
October 2004 @ 6:56am
]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

YES..
guess whos going to see john kerry speak tomorrow?.

thats me oh yes.

im going
yessss


<3

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[ Friday
September 2004 @ 4:50pm
]
[ mood | stressed ]


George Bush said that the war on Iraq was not a mistake and that if given a choice, he would do everything over again, in the same way. How can he possibly be serious? Is he really saying that if we knew there were no imminent threat, no weapons of mass destruction, no ties to al quaeda, that the United States would still have invaded Iraq? My answer is no.. because a Commander in Chiefs first responsibility is to make a wise and responsible decision to keep America safe.

Please vote smart.
Vote John Kerry for President.

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[ Tuesday
September 2004 @ 9:01pm
]
--Start--
Who was your first love (if you've had one)?: Roger
First kiss: just about a week ago actually
--Past--
If you could take back one thing you did, what would it be and why? : um im not sure
Do you have any regrets?: almost everything i do/did, i regret.
Last thing you said?: "yeah you will"
Last song you heard: "somebody"
Last person you talked to: patrick
If you could get back together with an ex, who would it be and why?: All of my ex's failed, i would never get back with any of them if.

--Present--
What are you doing right now?: This survey, and watching real world
Are you cold?: I am freezing.
How are you sitting?: one leg underneath the other.
Is there music on?: Yes.
If so, what song is it?: "white houses"
What time is it?: 9:03
Where are your parents?: out.. at some orientation thing

--Future--
How old will you be when you graduate high school?: 17 or 18. matters how many snow days we have
Are you going to get married?: most likely.
Although you cant tell who you'll marry, is there anyone you'd wish it would be?: This one person. they melt my heart.
Are you going to have children?: most likely
If yes, how many?: um 2 maybe
What will you name them?: anastacia and vivica
Do you want to go to college?: Yes.
Which college: esu
What kind of car will you want to drive: anything that people call a shitbox, and drives well.
What kind of job will you have: teacher.

--Have you ever--
Prank called the police: nope.
Been followed, etc by the police: nope.
Been drunk: nope.
Stolen anything: yes
Met someone off the net: yes
Been in a fist fight : i wish.
Punched your sibling/parent: my brother can be a bitch.
Wished you'd die: sometimes
Broken a bone: nope, thank god.
Driven illegally: nope.
Runaway: i tried.
Filled out a survey this long: I've done longer.

--Others--
Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrious: Righty.
What do you think of rainbows?: Rainbows are awesome.
Do you have any piercings/tattoos?: none.
If so, where?: none
If not, do you want any, where?: I want my lip and tongue peirced. And i want my bellybutton
What do you think of Eminem? : get over yourself, boy.
Is Tupac Shakur really dead?: Nope, and hes hiding in Cuba.
If you could live anywhere else, where would you live?: new york, or California.
Do you drive?: unfortunately not.
Do you have braces or glasses?: braces
Like milk and cookies?: Who doesn't?
Ever worn black nail polish?: Yes.
If your a guy, have you ever painted your nails?: -female-
Girls, what color nail polish do you have on?: red
If you could have a 6th sense, what would it be?: esp
If you could be invisible for a day what would you do?: Oh lord, everything.
Do you do things even when your parents say no?: yup. because i'm so badass.
Ever taken anything from a hotel?: HAH. yes. Again, because i'm a badass.
Did you talk to your crush/bf/gf today?: Yes
First real kiss: about a week ago
First job: Babysitter.
First screen name: i dont remember
First self-purchased album: Hanson.
First funeral: grandfathers
First pet: champ, the best dog ever
First piercing: in my ears.. its gone now
First big trip: south carolina
Last kiss: last week
Last good cry: last night.
Last movie seen: Napoleon Dynamite. <33333 IDIOT!!
Last phone call: kristin
Last TV show watched: real world
Last shoes worn: black stilettos
Last CD played: modest mouse
Last item bought: lunch
Last soda drank: diet pepsi
Last ice cream eaten: mint chocolate chip
Last shirt worn: boustierre type shirt

[The Vitals]
- Full name: Samantha Rae Ace
- Nickname/s: Sierra, Rae. Sammi, Sam
Location: Pennsylvania
- Natural Hair color: blonde.
- Present Hair color: blonde.. but not original blonde
- Eye color: Hazel. sometimes green
- Bra size/Penis size: Bra-32b

[The Nosey]
- What color is your underwear? yellow
- Girls, is your bra padded/do you stuff it? no
- Do you have a crush on someone? yes
- Does anyone have a crush on you? yes
- Which celebrities do you find attractive? whoa, too many.
- Which celebrities would you make out with given the chance? See above, baby.
- Which of your friends do you find attractive? um.. a couple

[The Morals]
- Would you kiss someone you don't love? yes.
- Would you have sex with someone you don't love? yes.
- Do you have any love interests? yes
- Do you believe in sex before marriage?: yes.
- Have you ever been in love? yes.
- Do you want to get married? yes.
[The Ending]
- What is the time? 9:12
- How long did this take you? um a little
- Did you enjoy this? i guess. I was really bored.
- What did you do most during this survey? moved around cause i gotta pee pee pee
- Any final thoughts? I'um nope. im so tired
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[ Thursday
September 2004 @ 9:47pm
]
EW my moms such a dirtbag.. "sam i think youre getting viruses from livejournal.." "uh no mom. youre gay. my journal isnt really 'live' thats just the title.. its like a website shut up"
SHE DOESNT GET IT. she thinks my journal is like a "live" journal.. like aim.. EW

what a fgt
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[ Saturday
September 2004 @ 11:35am
]
friday. me and heather hung out on main street.

i had so much fun <3
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[ Friday
September 2004 @ 11:17pm
]
ah internets been gay. cant update much.

school isnt as bad as i thought.
i have given [N] my heart.
me and heather have been hanging out.
napoleon dynamite owns me.
i have blonder hair because i dyed it in a creek.
creepy people are everywhere.
i hate heartless people {ie: russia terrorists in the school}
i have finally cleaned my room.

my past months in a nutshell..
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[ Wednesday
August 2004 @ 1:06am
]
saw napoleon dynamite with kristin. fucking hilarious.

"what are you going to do today napoleon?"
"whatever i WANna do GOSH!"


hhaha its so funny.. ill go again
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[ Monday
August 2004 @ 11:38pm
]
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[ Sunday
August 2004 @ 8:28pm
]
YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (NAME OF FIRST PET + STREET YOU LIVE ON)
Bandit Wigwam

YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (NAME OF YOUR FAVOURITE SNACK FOOD + GRANDFATHERS FIRST NAME)
Crackers Jay

YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (FIRST WORD YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT + FAVOURITE RESTAURANT)
Dinosaur Friendlys

EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot)
Paprika Jamaica

SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied)
Sierra New York

"FLY GIRL" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)
S. Ace

ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen)
Dinosaur Water

DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School)
Fawn Stroudsburg

BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink)
Cheeto Long Island Iced Tea

SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived)
Rae Pottsville

ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician)
Lollipop Peas
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[ Friday
August 2004 @ 3:33pm
]



Take it slow
Turn me on
Club gets warmer
Body moves closer
One with the rhythm
Don't stop moving
You're making me
hot
From head to toe
I feel your flow
Vibe gets stronger
Party seems longer
Makes me really want'cha
Don't stop moving
You're making me
hot
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[ Friday
August 2004 @ 3:28pm
]
summer ruins me.
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[ Friday
August 2004 @ 3:20pm
]




my new shoes.=D


stfu. im losing 15 pounds before school starts.. i weigh 125 right now. wtf.

okay crash diet starting now..and exercising.. no wait.. dancing .. yeah

and dont tell me not to lose weight because if you say that its just going to make me lose it more.. i do the opposite of what people tell me to do.. dont ever tell me what to do.. its my body i do what i want with it..
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[ Friday
August 2004 @ 1:04pm
]
wtf!

my schedule

first semester
1. early world history
2. geometry
3. career planning first quarter
3. P.E. second quarter
4. english
5. orchestra
6. clothing design
7. lunch
8. drama
9. chemistry

second sememster
1. early world history
2. geometry
3. public speaking and debate
4. english
5. orchestra
6. lunch
7. this is your life third quarter
7. health fourth quarter
8. photography
9. chemistry


stfu... they made my first semester lunch 7th period and my second semester 6th period.. wtf im going to be so confused..
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[ Friday
August 2004 @ 12:42pm
]


hot
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[ Thursday
August 2004 @ 3:07pm
]
Set a snake:? set a snake? um whatev. i like snakes so i'd do anything
Spend a week in an empty room:no how boring... but i wouldnt be scurred
Ride in a hot-air balloon:yeah
Sky dive:yeah
Sing in front of a huge audience:yeah
scuba dive:yeah.. ive done it
Sit in the front seat of a roller coaster:yeah ive done it
Deliver a baby:yeah
Swim across the Amazon River:yeah
Change careers:..maybe
Disappear for a long period of time:yeah
Walk through the forest alone at night:yeah
Join a space mission:yeah
Tell everyone what you honestly think of them:yes
Call off your wedding:yes
Walk naked through New York City for 10 minutes during rush hour:no
Walk up to Mike Tyson and call him a girl:yes
Disarm a bomb:yes
CLean the outside windows of a skyscraper:yes
Draw a mustache on the Mona Lisa with a permanent marker:no
Go on tour with Elvis:... is that even possible.
Go swimming during a thunder storm:yeah
Preform surgury on your best friend:yes

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<table style="font-size:10px;background-color:white;color:black;border:1px solid black;"><tr><td>Usuals:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>Name::</td><td>Samantha </td></tr><tr><td>Age::</td><td>16 </td></tr><tr><td>Sex::</td><td>Female </td></tr><tr><td>Height::</td><td>5'6" </td></tr><tr><td>Hair Color::</td><td>blonde </td></tr><tr><td>Eye Color::</td><td>green </td></tr><tr><td>Weight::</td><td>i dunno </td></tr><tr><td>Shoe Size::</td><td>7 & 8 </td></tr><tr><td>Favorites:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>Color::</td><td>pink and green </td></tr><tr><td>Number::</td><td>11 </td></tr><tr><td>Letter::</td><td>x </td></tr><tr><td>Animal::</td><td>dinosaur </td></tr><tr><td>Weather::</td><td>sunny </td></tr><tr><td>Band::</td><td>black eyed peas & Modest Mouse </td></tr><tr><td>Artist::</td><td>Salvador Dali </td></tr><tr><td>Guitarist::</td><td>michelle branch </td></tr><tr><td>Singer::</td><td>i have too many </td></tr><tr><td>Drummer::</td><td>i dont know </td></tr><tr><td>Key boardist::</td><td>i dont know </td></tr><tr><td>Pianist::</td><td>vanessa carlton </td></tr><tr><td>This/That:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>Pepsi/Sprite:</td><td>pepsi </td></tr><tr><td>Outgoing/Shy:</td><td>outgoing </td></tr><tr><td>Mean/Nice:</td><td>nice </td></tr><tr><td>Depechemode/VnV Nation:</td><td>depeche mode </td></tr><tr><td>Pantera/Cannable Corpse:</td><td>neither.. but pantera </td></tr><tr><td>Guitar/Drums:</td><td>guitar fo sho </td></tr><tr><td>Singer/Dancer:</td><td>singer & dancer :D </td></tr><tr><td>Day/Night:</td><td>day </td></tr><tr><td>Sunlight/Moonlight:</td><td>moonlight </td></tr><tr><td>Romantic/Normal:</td><td>romantic </td></tr><tr><td>Freak/Looser:</td><td>freak </td></tr><tr><td>Loner/Popular:</td><td>popular </td></tr><tr><td>Quiet/Loud:</td><td>quiet </td></tr><tr><td>God/Atheist:</td><td>god </td></tr><tr><td>Some more...:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>Do you believe in god?:</td><td>sometimes </td></tr><tr><td>Why?:</td><td>.. </td></tr><tr><td>Any Siblings?:</td><td>2 </td></tr><tr><td>How old are they?:</td><td>6 & 10 </td></tr><tr><td>Do you like humans?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>How about animals?:</td><td>im an animal rights activist </td></tr><tr><td>Or crayons?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Relationship...:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>B/f Or G/f?:</td><td>bf </td></tr><tr><td>Bi, Straight, Gay:</td><td>straight </td></tr><tr><td>Are you single?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Why or Why not?:</td><td>... </td></tr><tr><td>Do you love them?:</td><td>n/a </td></tr><tr><td>Do they love you?:</td><td>n/a </td></tr><tr><td>Have a crush on someone?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have stupid pet names? or have you in tthe past?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Virgin?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Have you ever....:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>Had Sex?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Killed an animal?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Gone Surfing?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Gotten High?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>listened to a band you hated?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Kiilled someone?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Tried?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>but got caught?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Bunge Jumped?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Tried Suicide?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Read a very long book... (over 500pg's):</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Kissed someone?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Made out?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Oral?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Been called a freak?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Are you one?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Had a pet?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>What was the pet?:</td><td>a lot </td></tr><tr><td>Do you...:</td><td> </td></tr><tr><td>Care about anyone?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Love your enemies?:</td><td>sometimes </td></tr><tr><td>Kill helpless animals?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Go to parties every night?:</td><td>no </td></tr><tr><td>Hate posers?:</td><td>yes </td></tr><tr><td>Beat others up because they are different?:</td><td>no </td></tr></table><br /><a href="http://www.bzoink.com/surveys.php?id=2995" title="Everything they need to know">Everything they need to know</a> brought to you by <a
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[ Thursday
August 2004 @ 2:50pm
]


heather i miss you
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[ Thursday
August 2004 @ 1:21am
]
i just realized how fucking pissed i really am about that photobucket shit.. i have to reupload every picture that i have uploaded. to my account again.. fuck you asshole. i hate you


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